淹没

人来人往
站在陌生人群中时
发现了我的渺小

即使不见了
也没能被发现

我知道
我不孤单
只是
缺少了 他
感觉，还是少了什么

我
遇不到
那个

他

那个
对的他





我快被寂寞吞噬
被孤单折磨


谁，
把我救出来
带我离开寂寞边界

Please.

i know lately i went back home late
mostly 12am
left mom waiting me to come back

but u cant say tat..
i went back late nt for assignment/class
but i went to mamak, yam cha
i already reject most of the yam cha
once in a while, nt really over right?


i know lately i went out a lot
for video shooting
few days in a week

u cant say tat i went out
because i went for fun, for dating
i already try to get the location as near as posible


i know my result is nt really good
but i tried my best
i squeezed my brain

u can say tat i m nt talent
but please dun deny my work
i did do my best to make people like it
BUT
u cant say tat i m wasting ur money
while i get de result u do not want

i already nt askin pocket money from u
i try to get my stuff by my own
now even petrol i try to vomit myself
wad for i work on sunday n every sem break?
y i m nt goin to travel, go field trip wit friends
i know how hard to earn de money
tatz y i say i will pay u back, de 3yr amount of toa fees


it going to be 3rd yr
itz goin to b my hardest time
i need support from u, my family
nt ur denying
it really make me stress

while lec share some of de 2nd major elective
i m so worry i feel lik crying
every time i heard tat, it jz making me more panic
i dun even dare to choose..



i really dunno wad else i can do





wad can i do to gain ur trust?
wad i confirm is.. i m nt good enough for u

Insomnia

it is now almost
4.00am

i m stil awake
cant sleep
my 1st night, i cant sleep after de tiring day
thinkin on something, almost everything
but i m not doin anything

i m emo
cried in d middle of night
wanted to shout
wanted to escape

wad should i do
wad can i do
wad m i doin

how?
how now?

target, future?
where's mine?
i m lost,again.
i m..loser

Dream.

it happened.. after a call..
few dayz ago, my call.

i dream some thing that i shouldn't
i dream some thing that i wanted so badly

i remember i cry in de dream
i remember de scene.. me n u

but..
i waked up
with..
my heart, still beating.


GIVE it UP
i keep repeat to myself
a thousand times
a million times

wad i wanz?
i m so confuse

wadz it called?
i do not know.

why?

are now in coll's video lab
den we wonder y...
only dg student allow to overnight in 3d animation lab...
den we suggest, coll should hav bedroom.. or restroom..
so we can sleep, or some cleanin in coll while its a bit late

anywayz.. jz some student imagination
stil in video lab.. in video lab... for video



tired.
need some rest
need some pause for busy life
feelin nt really well these day

Hug me, if u see me.
Please?

sudddenly
nose bleedin





izzit bcoz of de whole day of tirin video shootin
or hot sun?

Comin Soon

MAD

i m jz sooo *d-cencor*


is tat my FAULT?


u claim all on me? 260?
u r de one who is nt patient tat waitin for lock smith i called
u jz ran wit ur car n go other place repair b bring me a resit

n blame me i do not know how 2 make key?
scold me stupid, shoutin *f-cencor*?

i done lotz key, u r de only 1 who hav tis problem
de worst is jz cant go in, nt stuck lik urs
urz is can fit in, n sucessfully start engine
but u make it bengkok n cant get out again


where i should vomit u 260?
my part time only 250/month
max i can is 100 from me


*cencor*, nt even can pass peacefully my cny
some more is de 1st day of workin
MAD