a Step 2 Auntie's life

i m getting auntie n auntie d = =||
i went to GIANT alone again today
help mom buy rice, sugar, salt etc
for myself, some potato, carrots, lemon etc
i was standing so long of choosing the strawberries n potatos
atleast 15mins for each of them
when i m in the place, walkin around with troley
i can feel others eyes, starin n wonderin(?)

tis morning 7am+-, i follow my mom go morning market
i jz cant see some 1 age similiar with me
(mayb yes, bt nt really much)
all auntie uncle or kids with parents
makes me feel lik.. oh.. i m gettin auntie d..(?)
a young half auntie.. since i can halfly cook, sew n housework..
n always stay home -.-
guess i m already into de auntieS life..
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last few days really wasnt in good mood
video, motions, dm3, 3D, branding is killing me..
every subject hav it own problems.. ARGH

anywayz.. tomoro is shooting day
pray for everything run smoothly..
i m puttin my hope, effort there..
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i m so geng in accidenlty
i get another 2 new wound on my left hand
while cutting stuff , 1 yesterday 1 today
2 cuts on 2 diff finger in 2 days

* i m now blooming flower in my toilet =x

I m made of..

TOFU

i though de name was given while gaming
back to abt.. 4 years ago? atleast
coz each of us own a food name
it jz a name, nt much of meaning

but at d end
i realize it came because i used to hurt
hurt accidentally, always.

a lil bit from last week
pipe saw fall n hit my arm
luckily it wasn't sharp
so jz a small scar now on my arm

i dint see some thing on de floor
n kicked it, n it hurts.

yesterday,
i knock my head n hit de door frame
both happen together in less den 1 min

today,
i dunno how n why my finger nails patah
in de very early morning

while i walking around n grab things for customer
de metal thing hit my feet,
my toe so it bleeds.

while i wan to take mouse trap placed high
i m nt tall enough n i use a stick for assistance
n it, 2 of dem fall n hit my finger thumb


i told my friend abt it
he agreed:" u r really made of tofu."
so easy to get hurts, physically n mentally
de heart, especially.

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cant celebrate his bday wit him
he is now outstation
emm.. i guess..
he will stil happy with his friend..

finding.

findin myself a reason to cry
findin myself a place to hide
findin myself a way to go
findin myself an excuse...for every thing



i smile, nt bcoz i wan to
i laugh, nt bcoz it is funny
CRY? tears not even rollin
what i wan now?
i dunno.

what he wans?
i dunno.
what is he doin?
i dunno.
what is in his mind?
i dunno.
what is he hidin away from me?
i dunno.
why is he actin tat way?
i dunno.
who m i to him?
i dunno.

n tis is wad ppl call 犯贱

*repeatin
i stay in love, mariah carey
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=) i wanna go club tis fri, badly.
i wonder is tis time my mom allow?

MAD

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

[Verse 1]
She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are Mad for...

[Hook]
Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]
And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
(What happened to workin' it out).
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

*repeat* [Hook]
*repeat* [Chorus]

[Bridge]
Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

*repeat* [Chorus]
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my yesterday
i dun feel lik listen to crazy kind of love now
reminds me of it.. damn
although is stil my fav song

ki xiao punya blueBlack

i fall from stairs, 4days ago

so embrasin - - 20 le stil pokai
which is tues, motion presentation
wear long pants(which nt mine) n high heels
*i nv fall bcoz of high heels, ok? n nt 1st time wearin it*

after class, i went to studio met him
den sudd friend ask me teman her go some where
(de studio locate at de highest floor, 3rd floor)
den go nor.. while goin down from de stairs
mayb i a bit rush or sumthing else?
it jz 3 steps more to de ground, i fall
yes, is pokai. n hurted my left leg again
thankz, it is carpet ground which nt really tat hurt

no blue black on de spot
appears after i home

2days later, getting bigger
*no pic*

4days later.. de shape is totaly change
it jz a tiny small dot lik d left side (right leg)
= = wad de hell is de blue black will change de shape 1
( in e shape)
so weird

no shorts allow temporary..

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tomoro,

he will b performing in
summit, USJ. 5.00pm
=)

lastWeek

last Sunday, my aloneWeekend
wake up alone
breakfast alone, every1 go out
work alone, no 1 help
go home alone
go out alone
drive alone, parkin alone
hang in popular wareHouse sales alone
dinner alone, take away Shakey's
do motion alone, stare at monitor

anyways.. forget abt tat alone part
i spent in tat wareHouse sale abt 2hour+
seriously.. i did not get enough of BOOKs yet
i wish i could stay longer
i should go earlier..
*i though it ended last last week*
*last week was de last day *
*sorry my dear dears ;__; i dint bring u guys*
all those books been grab away ;__;
n sooo many ppl

it is just SOOOO cheap
fiction, rm3.00 - rm15.00 ONLY
sales up to 90% !!
CDs n Dvds are onSale too
*i saw JayChou's ori CD.. rm9.90*

de end.. i grab these book:

=x tis is not a book..


and coast me..
RM63.15
ok la.. stil in my budget
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the WorkSpace


._. so clean(?) so simple so GREEN

____________________________________continue wib 3D

I m juz..

DAMN
FARKING
HELL
BLOODY



BAD MOOD


and is not bcoz of motion
is not.. really..

i m now tryin to control-kan myself
tryin hard to not think abt it
focus on my motion



note:
my babycam finaly come back to me
will blog abt popular warehouse Sales in de nx few post