backPacked2Taiwan-Day 1

since i end my course officially,

n been few years dint get to travel. I hav tis trip.

Supposedly going wit college mate.
But end with wish some miss-communications,
i ended up with backpacking alone.
n surprisingly, i get approve n support from my mom

Special thanks:
dad sponsoring me air ticket
mom for the pocket money
bro for the few nights room
random strangers, n people

day 1- 17 may 2010
mom n bro fetch me to LCCT
only 25mins from my house ;D reached at 8.00am
get my past n done everything
i hugged mummy den go into de gate
boarding at 9.10am, flight at 10.10am

here i come, Taiwan.

i wish i could swim there XD if possible

Luckily i borrow an ipod touch from my cousin.
help me to kill my time when i m on the flight
4 hours, bit longer than i thought

i reached here about 2.30pm
check in, pick up luggage, apply YouthTravel Card, say goodbye to friends
n bought bus ticket


tis is the bus ticket bring me to my living place, TBP hostel
"FREE GO BUS" doesn't mean don't need to pay.
it cost TW140
by the way, tis bus take people to a few more hotel in tai pei

ah, when i m in the bus, there r travelers from m'sia too
-_- n they r noisy.


my 1st station, xi men ding. 西门町
check in the hostel at 5.00pm

Taiwan BackPakers Hostel
http://www.taipei-backpackers.com/
cheap, yet clean. the workers there r very friendly
dey provide wi-fi n also 2 pc XD
my bro book me a 4 bed dorm
but dey got mistaken so i sleep wit 1 of the girls there
which is bcom a double room
:D i wanted to sleep on a bunk bed for long time d!

after unload my luggage, i went out n look for my lunch + dinner

1 of the old building located near by place i living

ah.. i should hav take the photo of this junction.
it is happening at evening.

my 1st day, i saw a clown =D

i walk around randomly, craving for food. hungry.
dint get to eat any thing since morning.
it was a street, a shopping street
u can see clothes, accessories, bags, shoes, EVERYWHERE

and i accidentally found tis "restaurant"


people hav to stand n eat XD
although dey provide a few chair la, as u can see
well.. taste was not bad ;D n cheap
TW450/small
TW500/big
emm.. de small 1 is quite full for me

XD i bough my drinks here.
1L of jasmine tea cost me TQW250 only ler
i cant finished dem. too much for me
de mee shua is a bit filling

so i continue walk around.
i was lost when i try to walk back to my hostel
well, i dint really pay attention..
and it is getting dark -_- so scary
n there r some dark street OMG
-_- n i finally made "home" after 1 hour losing

randomly, i saw tis dog in a shop
so guai leh, wont run out 1
not lik my house punya -_-

online n check some updates
i brought my bro's net book along too
to keep contact with my family for hotel checking XD
YES, i dint n i haven booked living place for de rest of my nights.
but the r some proxy prob tat i did not know how 2 fix

so i ask de Australian guy nx to me
BUT!
i.. cant understand his slank seriously
it is so hard for me to listen wad he said
it was all stick together n.. he talk quite soft
so i giv up n said i will figure out myself
since he got no idea too
and thank god i hav i pod with me n it suff normally

later on, he intro himself to me.
n he is a chef in vacation now, n goin to suff
n he keep asking me how to reply his email
-_- ah.. i dont really remember wad is tat about any more
since i cant understand him thou

;__; i know i m lousy.. i admit.. lo..
den i go back to my room n prepare for tmr
yea, i haven planed where i want to go yet
HAHAHA



-to be continue-

TooMuch

=-= therez a lot happening i wan to blog actually..
but seeing those picz.. i m so lazy
=x wait till i compile my stuff ba

n finaly term break again
*yay*
but since i had quit my job.. n tire-ness
i dont think i will back there soon..
not tis sem break

n my credit for dance class.. expired d, more than 3months..
if i wan to start again, i need to pay registration 80bucz again
OMG.. so.. dunno wad to plan for my holiday
feel lik saving.. since i got no income.. ish..

a Step 2 Auntie's life

i m getting auntie n auntie d = =||
i went to GIANT alone again today
help mom buy rice, sugar, salt etc
for myself, some potato, carrots, lemon etc
i was standing so long of choosing the strawberries n potatos
atleast 15mins for each of them
when i m in the place, walkin around with troley
i can feel others eyes, starin n wonderin(?)

tis morning 7am+-, i follow my mom go morning market
i jz cant see some 1 age similiar with me
(mayb yes, bt nt really much)
all auntie uncle or kids with parents
makes me feel lik.. oh.. i m gettin auntie d..(?)
a young half auntie.. since i can halfly cook, sew n housework..
n always stay home -.-
guess i m already into de auntieS life..
______________________
last few days really wasnt in good mood
video, motions, dm3, 3D, branding is killing me..
every subject hav it own problems.. ARGH

anywayz.. tomoro is shooting day
pray for everything run smoothly..
i m puttin my hope, effort there..
______________________
i m so geng in accidenlty
i get another 2 new wound on my left hand
while cutting stuff , 1 yesterday 1 today
2 cuts on 2 diff finger in 2 days

* i m now blooming flower in my toilet =x

I m made of..

TOFU

i though de name was given while gaming
back to abt.. 4 years ago? atleast
coz each of us own a food name
it jz a name, nt much of meaning

but at d end
i realize it came because i used to hurt
hurt accidentally, always.

a lil bit from last week
pipe saw fall n hit my arm
luckily it wasn't sharp
so jz a small scar now on my arm

i dint see some thing on de floor
n kicked it, n it hurts.

yesterday,
i knock my head n hit de door frame
both happen together in less den 1 min

today,
i dunno how n why my finger nails patah
in de very early morning

while i walking around n grab things for customer
de metal thing hit my feet,
my toe so it bleeds.

while i wan to take mouse trap placed high
i m nt tall enough n i use a stick for assistance
n it, 2 of dem fall n hit my finger thumb


i told my friend abt it
he agreed:" u r really made of tofu."
so easy to get hurts, physically n mentally
de heart, especially.

_______
cant celebrate his bday wit him
he is now outstation
emm.. i guess..
he will stil happy with his friend..

finding.

findin myself a reason to cry
findin myself a place to hide
findin myself a way to go
findin myself an excuse...for every thing



i smile, nt bcoz i wan to
i laugh, nt bcoz it is funny
CRY? tears not even rollin
what i wan now?
i dunno.

what he wans?
i dunno.
what is he doin?
i dunno.
what is in his mind?
i dunno.
what is he hidin away from me?
i dunno.
why is he actin tat way?
i dunno.
who m i to him?
i dunno.

n tis is wad ppl call 犯贱

*repeatin
i stay in love, mariah carey
_____________________________
=) i wanna go club tis fri, badly.
i wonder is tis time my mom allow?

ki xiao punya blueBlack

i fall from stairs, 4days ago

so embrasin - - 20 le stil pokai
which is tues, motion presentation
wear long pants(which nt mine) n high heels
*i nv fall bcoz of high heels, ok? n nt 1st time wearin it*

after class, i went to studio met him
den sudd friend ask me teman her go some where
(de studio locate at de highest floor, 3rd floor)
den go nor.. while goin down from de stairs
mayb i a bit rush or sumthing else?
it jz 3 steps more to de ground, i fall
yes, is pokai. n hurted my left leg again
thankz, it is carpet ground which nt really tat hurt

no blue black on de spot
appears after i home

2days later, getting bigger
*no pic*

4days later.. de shape is totaly change
it jz a tiny small dot lik d left side (right leg)
= = wad de hell is de blue black will change de shape 1
( in e shape)
so weird

no shorts allow temporary..

______________________

tomoro,

he will b performing in
summit, USJ. 5.00pm
=)

lastWeek

last Sunday, my aloneWeekend
wake up alone
breakfast alone, every1 go out
work alone, no 1 help
go home alone
go out alone
drive alone, parkin alone
hang in popular wareHouse sales alone
dinner alone, take away Shakey's
do motion alone, stare at monitor

anyways.. forget abt tat alone part
i spent in tat wareHouse sale abt 2hour+
seriously.. i did not get enough of BOOKs yet
i wish i could stay longer
i should go earlier..
*i though it ended last last week*
*last week was de last day *
*sorry my dear dears ;__; i dint bring u guys*
all those books been grab away ;__;
n sooo many ppl

it is just SOOOO cheap
fiction, rm3.00 - rm15.00 ONLY
sales up to 90% !!
CDs n Dvds are onSale too
*i saw JayChou's ori CD.. rm9.90*

de end.. i grab these book:

=x tis is not a book..


and coast me..
RM63.15
ok la.. stil in my budget
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the WorkSpace


._. so clean(?) so simple so GREEN

____________________________________continue wib 3D

I m juz..

DAMN
FARKING
HELL
BLOODY



BAD MOOD


and is not bcoz of motion
is not.. really..

i m now tryin to control-kan myself
tryin hard to not think abt it
focus on my motion



note:
my babycam finaly come back to me
will blog abt popular warehouse Sales in de nx few post

half of my day

12.30am
he jz reach home n called me
i was about to sleep
but he stil need to think of choreography
lots of choreography
he told me he is goin to 走火入魔

hang up n i send him a short sms
fall asleep
reply me at 2.00am+
telling me tat he is goin to bed too

4am
he ter-wake up n call me..
den we hav a short chat
after tat, i though i m goin to bed soon
but..
i feel wet in my nose
= = de feeling of nose bleeding
n yes, i bleed - -..
called him n den he get scared *ahaha.. i so evil*
comfort me n chase me off to rest
i think tat really wake him up... XD

de blood on d shirt ._. i jz realise when i wake up at 8+

bleedin is now stop..
should go back to bed d XD

good night n morning =)
_______
8am+ cant continue my sleep
den suffin de net n start on motion
9.30 prepare to go out 10am(?) reach his place
=) his arm bcom my pillow
10.45am i force him wake up n go for breakfast

i laugh lik hell (in d heart) when he drive his friend's car
big fella squeeze in a kancil *ahahah*
after tat he need to go kepong n work
so i go back home too
continue tat bloody troublesome motion

my leg stil pain nia..
tat cream is nt really tat useful lo dear -_-

1 more week

-sketch is so much cuteR-
-de chinese name is de character name-
-there should b 3 more.. bt i m lazy...-

the poster is friend punya
wait him back from penang den send him~


tis look lik horror movie XD

den suggestion from friend:

._. anywayz.. final decision is on him


-_- i m jz abit too.. boring.. today
since i hav no place to go..
except early morning 7am, teman mom go market

ISH..
most of de friend is in bkt jalil for leehom concert
;___; sobz.. i cant go.. alwayz cannot go

stay home,line gt prob also..
therez 3laptop 1pc using de same line
den msn also sot le - -

tomoro's dating cancel(postpone) again
some 1 is stil sick+leg pain
-_- i wonder y dey lik to push demself so hard?

1 more week to go.
mother's day n new sem ;__; i m so worry
wonderin.. can i handle dem...
i.college's assignment, projects, group works
ii.house's work ( mom is goin to travel again )
iii.dance training ( i finaly found my way 2 de-stress )
iv.part-time job on sun

time for picking up de mood n skills

NewColor

its my room~
i finally free to repaint my room

me n mom argue for de color, been a while
she say de place i study mz b green
n girls room should b in purple
den i was matching purple n green.. n it looks.. er..
although look nice in design, bt i cant imagine it in my room

so at d end.. herez de color

be4 showing de outcome~
herez some progress
working time- 23 apr 2.30pm-12.00am
24 10.30am-5.30pm, 7.00pm-11.00pm

de room, before anything
mess lik hell ._.


material:
1.paints (7L maxilite for bass. KCC a korea brand, i use mix color which is nt in cataloge)
2.7" roller
3.1 1/2 paint brush
4.paint tray
5.2" scraper
6.wall filla (to fix de hole n crack)
7.muskin tape
8.newspaper/canvas
9.thinner (actualy nt really using it nah, is water paint)
10.curtain rod (to replace paint rod)

after de white bass, Maxilite 7L

so.. after hours n hours workin on it..

EMPTY neh~ ofcoz nah..
haven move in furniture yet mah~

ta-da~ here is it.
Feel FRESH n exciting, lik move into new house(room)
anywayz.. there stil things i haven really clean up

time for bed~

Reason of cried

is falling for de song i listen to
or i cried for myself
or jz a emotion
or stress



m now a bit confuse.







can i hav a day without any scold?
can i know de reason, answer of wh-y?

Bipolar Disorder

Depression survey from my friend

http://befriendersurvey.blogspot.com/

=D go n try it out.
so u understand more wadz happenin on urself.

-_- i score de 2nd highest..

4. Bipolar Disorder (31m~39m)
* i m 32 *

The first stage signs are:
· Withdrawal from friends and family
· Low self-esteem and lack of confidence
· Sleeping for long periods and still feeling tired
· Start Having suicidal thoughts
· Cries easily without apparent cause

The second stage signs are
· Lack of concentration
· Increased sex drive
· Alcohol or substance abuse
· Obvious agitation



.__.
Depression is serious and if you score moderate or high depression
please see a doctor and consider some of the tool and you are suggested call to
BEFRIENDER 24-HOUR HOTLINE 03-795681445 to get a counseling
because after all's said and done it's up to you to deal yourself!


so.. i m on in huh...

清明节

每年的这个时期
亲戚好友都会回家乡扫墓拜拜之类的
大概只有我 还会在雪州 没有地方可去
连家乡也在雪州

有时候反而会羡慕其他人可以去扫墓

而我
没有墓可扫
爸爸那边的亲戚 我有多久没见过了?
连自己亲生的爸爸.. 有多久没见过了?
8年? 9年? 我自己也不知道了
仿佛连他的样子也已经模糊


身为孙子的我
奶奶去世了2年的消息 竟然今年才知道

当奶奶还在世上的时候
新年期间曾经打电话叫我和哥哥回去
可是.. 我们俩并没有出现
我, 后悔了 却已来不及了
现在也没能去拜拜, 给她老人家上过香
我知道我的不孝, 只是我有我的苦衷
我相信她老人家不会怪我的

虽然小时候也不常到他们家..
但是... 我
记得奶奶以前很疼我， 称赞我乖
记得爷爷也很疼我，把他收藏的茶壶送了给我
记得爷爷奶奶的家 外面有个木搭的亭子 种满了花
踏进门口有一张圆圆的木桌子
转个弯 会看到厨房和吃饭桌
还有一个阁楼放杂物
厨房的旁边有空地 养了几只狗

唯独是他们的样子， 我记不住
也没有他们的照片
只记得 爷爷奶奶大寿的时候
有很多人一起庆祝
会有很多堂兄弟妹在一起 很开心



回忆, 停留在10岁
没再更新了..
奶奶 对不起

i wan

you..

u..










i wan U..
BADLY..









yes... is u..
U over there












U



i count my salary..
total days of my part time working
monthly sunday working..
everything..

might have abt 1900.

since yesterday get to know de price of PSP
n de newz of jz till stock end
i feel lik buying

i told my mom jz now
she was like...
what for?



*quiet*
den i continue faint on sofa..



haiz..
i wanz him..
my mind is now full of u

free?

official sem break d
bt i m back to coll tomoro
for photography, for video

;__; worry for results again. ISH.
video, edit n take to competition n student award.
so.. need some final edit

major elective thingy..
thinkin of it.. n thinkin of.. ekhem.

today.. my alarm ringz at 9+
bt i was faint until 1pm
i m so miss de day i hav no worries n sleep lik a pig

actualy.. tis break i plan to:
`re-write my stories which i stop for couple yrs
let dem hav a ending ba

`sew n continue my handcraft thingy
i hide dem in de corner.. quite a while also

`digital paint
`blog's layout
`wallpaper
`renovate+re-design my room
`clean up my stuff
`dance class
`movie
`dating

n `work for sure - -
i will b staying there for a month


i wonder do i hav strengh to do all of dem ._.
anywayz.. happy holiday =D

Half dead

ekhem hem..
tired+sick+rush assignment
kind of.. dead

worry bout assignment
i cant finished dem! i cant do dem well T_T
worry bout money
my insuranz, fees, pocket money etc
worry bout relations
argue wit family bla bla bla

i m worry.. worRY.. WORRY...!!

every time when i m on bed
i was thinkin..
oh.. tis should b lik tis..
ah.. tat can b lik tat...
is all about how to do assignment
n i dream abt assignment..
my dreamz r now full wit lectures, critics, assignment n bla
wad a life = =..

seriuosly.. i m getting down n low confident on my work
i m stuck, in a dead end, in a box

FRESH AIR...
i need some peaceful rest


ok - - done letting off some wordz
it juz endless complainz of life
time to back to assignment n back to LIFE

I m Sicked..

headache.. half of de day
feel tired n sleepy half of de day
but i dint get myself some nap
i will get scold of havin too much of nap

i really dun feel lik doin anything today
but i did spent time workin on some projects
at least.. i do some thing

juz now.. i was researchin..
and thinkin of my assignment..
but i lost it.. i lost wad i thinkin juz now
everything abt my assignment

seriously.. it is nt de 1st time
m i too weak of memory or wad?
i cant refresh my mind..
cant get back wad i was thinkin..
it juz a few sec before..


wad happen to me?






so sicked of being sick
i m alwayz de weirdo..

a Dream

O.o oh well.. itz abt yesterday dream
therez a scene i can remember very clearly

i was lookin at de mirror
n my hairstyle change again .__. lolx
bt de reflection of de mirror is not me

= =+

she was...
chubby, round eyes, no specz
and.. she is me.. when i was a kid
while i stil hav long black hair

den i wake up le
i wonder y i dream lik tat
.__. lucky is not me tat cover by blood
den i will scare die = =

so.. juz now scan [money] for my projects
n scan my picz together too haha~

i really hav long hair b4 de.. n i m fair = =+

i wonder.. can i hav tat smile again?

其实..

我 一点都不坚强
外表可以伪装 心也可以假装


其实我很爱哭
讨厌哭后的自己，很丑
即使很明白
哭了也不会有任何改变
却不能控制
眼泪更是不听话的狂掉


老天哭了 至少雨过天晴
人类哭了 烦恼依然存在




哭，过了
心，痛了
人，累了



我还剩什么
还拥有什么
要求的资格
我是否还有





世界不是末日
还有很多比我还悲惨
只是此时此刻
我需要时间消化一切
让我好好想想
我该怎么办才是最好